Black & White Cupcakes

Why do I always feel like I am living my life in gray?

I mean, I have the HARDEST time making decisions. From the smallest 'what should I have for breakfast?' (default: cupcakes) to 'what should I do with my life?' For once I would just like to make a decision, stick to it and go on with my life. Wouldn't it be nice to simply say, 'I will not eat cupcakes.' And actually do it. Forever.

Most people can. Or they can in moderation. I can't... Well sometimes I can, but sometimes I can't and it's like living in this constant flux, or limbo, or gray.

This goes for L.A., too (among other things in my life.) I need a sign. (Silly, right?) Anything to tell me one way or the other if I am doing the right thing with my life. If this is what will make me happy, if this is what I truly want... How will I know? (Sing it, Whitney.)

I have such a love/ hate relationship with L.A. that there are times when I think that L.A. is to cupcakes like cupcakes are to me- more closely related than I would like to admit.

But to begin to even think about leaving L.A. is scary... but maybe I should. Maybe then, cupcakes would leave me alone.

Plus, I hate clowns. (See below.)