Collar-Up Cupcakes

Have you ever heard the saying 'when it rains, it pours'? My beautiful mother always used to say this phrase when I was growing up, be it about boys or school or life in general, really.

I would say I am using it today in terms of work since I have been rather like a social butterfly (quite proud of myself) during this week of LA fashion... But tonight I am much more interested to know if I might one day meet a boy who likes me, and well, maybe only me?

It goes something like this. I like them. They don't like me. They like me. I don't like them. We both may like each other, but we live in different cities. There is an attraction, one person is taken. (Hint- it's not me.) They are busy. I am busy. They work at night. I work all the time. And so on, and so forth.

I have never thought of myself as the 'looking' type. If it happens, it happens and usually these things happen when you're not looking. So, for a long while in my book I have been actively 'not looking' and I have met some interesting people yes... but I do feel between the boy who thinks my throat is a playpen and the one who believes 30 is the new 5-year-old, I'm beginning to think I should start...

The irony I find is that many moons ago I was sad. (It almost feels good to say that now.) And that sadness permeated the world around me and those that I love. But, and this still amazes me to this day, time does help heal and the fog did disappear and I can say today, I am happy.

Am I completely, totally content? Of course not. I have about 1,537 things to do before I turn 26 and only 40 days to do them. I still am not certain what I want to do, or where I want to live for real (sometimes LA feels pretend) or who I'll be with forever... to be continued, I suppose.

So I find myself asking... why the cutie-patootie above? (Yes, I just said cutie-patootie.) Well, for one, he has the 'collar-up' look down and he is all of four years old. Maybe he could give some pointers to the boys who have 20+ years on him, but who cannot rock the polo half as well as he. Second, he is absolutely adorable, candidly posing while holding not one, but two cupcakes.

I think I'm in love.